I hope I get my thousands of dollars back.

Been a bad duty - lots of phone calls. Superbly busy at work.

My ear dripped blood again, for the 3rd time.

Pavarotti died.

But saw Zicha0 by chance during lunch today, and that was good.

Um. I think I've gotta visit the doc after duty week.

GAWD. Pissed. Boiling. Impatient.

ARRRRR.

I cannot log into office network again.

@#&*($#^%#(!

i stumbled across this poem.. it's nice!

website: http://www.best-love-poems.com/poems.php?id=587410

Too much time = emo.

It's raining heavily, on and off. Decided not to venture out so that I wouldn't be caught and get sick during duty week. I guess I'll go to the travel agency sometime soon.

It's also a time to wallow in sadness, cos the radio is also playing sad old songs.

How the weather and the songs I hear affect my moods!

It's getting really depressing. 

I can't be thinking of that. Must stop thinking about it.

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The mother had a major quarrel with The Younger Sister and threatened to cane her (Gee, I think that's the only way she knows how to discipline people... which 20-yr-old still gets caned unless you're in prison?). The Younger Sister stormed out of the house. All over a plastic bag.

Major stress. After so many years, I don't want to go back to being really poor. The Father's being liberal with his money, and The Mother keeps talking of quitting her job. Apparently, lowly-educated and old serpents are not being treated well at all. She keeps asking me to find her a job that pays about a thousand bucks a mth, but where do I find it? No matter what she says, I believe that she doesn't want to be poor too. Discounting The Elder Sister (not sure if she gives money), the first thought in my mind was that I've gotta earn at least $3.5 - 4k per month in order for her to quit her job. Besides, The Younger Sister is a money-sucker (I guess? Even though she is part-timing.. somewhere).

Damn stressed.

Ok people, I've gotta eat cheap. And reduce the drinking sessions (last time being The Elder Sister's wedding hurhurhur - yes!). And spend as little as possible. And grow money. Then, maybe, The Mother won't have to work for so long. I don't think she can survive 10 more years (Raise what retirement age!!!) before officially retiring. And I don't really want to see her sweeping floors or clearing tables, not that there's anything wrong with it.

i have so many things to do.

my mind is in a whirl with all the many things i have to do.

why is there no time!??!?!?!

ar.. not even a mth since KL and i am so burned out.

y do i have duty on both hari rayas?

not fair!!!!!! I've already worked 1.5 public holidays this year.

I have finally got my recovery CD! Yippee!~~~ Thanks.

Got Java.

Now, to take Office tmr.

Then, install that and printer.

Still gotta post letter, read books, papers, iron clothes, open bank accounts, pack my stuff and organise them, move the bookshelf in, clean room, tie up the cables....

AND FIND MY THUMBDRIVES! I CANNOT FIND MY THUMBDRIVES!

arrrrrrrrrrrr. *pissed with self for forgetting where self placed them*

Been very tired, sleeping at later than 1.15am everyday. It's now 1.38am. Hang on - I've got this deja vu feeling...

It's passed. Tmr still got to work. Sianz. And on duty nxt week. And on week 41. And 46. And 51. Sigh. Why can't we not have duty haha. For work continuity, for money, for a living.

It's getting so tiring, but we must endure!! Someday we'll be able to get what we want! (With sufficient funds, of course - seriously, it's not that we want to be money-minded, but how else can we survive?)

And one.

Ok I shall apologise to some people who I was mean to today.

Must. Keep. Cool. Must. Not. Be. Evil.

needs getting used to.

Anyway, today was a UBER BAD day at work.

Why is it that everytime I try to be positive, there are so many bad days and hurdles? Do I really have to get over all of them everytime I am vaguely positive?

But endure one must. Must move like HAW.

I shall clean up my room, find my thumbdrives, open those bank accounts, and get Office.

Duty roster has changed again. And still very afraid of being in new term with more politics. (Speaking of which, someone wrote a real unkind thing to the entire dept, when all I did was to make a mistake in English. And it wasn't even work email - it was an attempt to get $ for a birthday, for goodness's sake.

Well, no use being upset, is there? Is there?

Must stop lashing at people. But I can't help myself - loss of control at work. Damn.

So, went to Ch0rale concert today. They have good blend. I wonder when the ex-choir can reach that standard. I can literally feel the voices mixing in the space above.

That being said, some people can be unfriendly...

But nvm. I have decided to move on and not look back, and that I must do.

After all, I quit choir for money, so why don't I just take that as my motivation, my New Cheese? No point hemming and hawing about it. Dreams are just dreams. The past is past. It only serves as memories.

Also, if you can't change how people think, why not change how YOU think?

Another reflection of the day - I've been a bitch, and I know it. Now my conscience won't let me off. Must practice to think before I speak, and auto-filter some of the bad.

Drinking Lemongrass Ginger tea my sis bought back from Mauritius. It's light and refreshing.

Told boss that I am booking Dec 3rd to 7th. Um... I have... 8 more days of leave to clear I think! (And deathly afraid of being in new team, heard the weeknight calls are horrendous.)

Carpe Diem!

I've realised that my finances are in a mess these couple of days. Time to make amendments.

I need to 1. save more; 2. reduce spending; 3. close down the 0cbc account; 4. open SCB accounts; 5. get a chequebook; 6. read up more about investments. 

Darn. I am SUCH an ignoramus.

I shall eat more cheapo food. And buy cheapo shoes. And cheapo bags. And start buying some clothes for goodness sake. But must check quality. A pair of the shoes I bought from KL is not good at all. Grrrr.

Ahem. I also do not like the new initiatives that the rulers have on the compulsory savings. I don't I don't!

And, I am so sad that my HP CPU is giving me static. Especially since being a former employee I have advocated their pdts. It'd better be solved.

but how long will it last?

NVM. The NEW PC will be here on SAT!

WHY can't I find the SOAs? Or have they stopped sending?

And I'm still SicK.

Um. And Uber broke now.

Secret and The Simpsons.

I simply love the music in Secret. Fantastic to say the least. I would love to be able to study in such an old building and wear the uniform, but alas, the oldest place I have been in, remotely connected to school, is RH. Haha.

The Simpsons is hilarious.  Some aw moments... *Just like me, they long to be, close to you.....*

My 2 favourite genres of shows - comedy and fairy taley.

happy happy! =)

Love talented musicians, singers and composers.

Awe.

The comp's acting up again...

Some ppl's names used to pop up everytime I wanted to ask people out, but now... it's a different song.

Happy for her.

I like everything about the dinner (other than some of the food and minor pissed-off-ness). They must have spent a bomb (what I know is about $1000 a table?).

Went to the 64th flr of the hotel - a fabulously large suite. There is a living area, a toilet room, a bathtub, shower room, make-up room, a transparent weighing machine, 2 basins, 2 balconies, 3 tvs (one facing the bathtub!), couch, etc etc. Best of all, the drinks in the fridge, snacks and fruits are free the first time round.

Fantastic, innit? I swear to make such money that I can stay in that kind of room at least once in my life.

Mother and I did hair and make-up for $70 each - I like the way the person did my hair. That being said, I think those hairstylists, make-up artistes, beauticians etc are all super good at flattering people (with no truth). This one said something about me having grade A features, etc etc... and again volunteered to matchmake me upon hearing that I have no SO (that was what the hairdresser said too). But of course, like the hairdresser, she didn't really ask me for my phone number. Haha.

Hair and make-up can be seen in the m$n display pic, which I keep thinking is a little skewered to the left. There seems to be something missing on the right. Or is it the space there that gives the picture its feel? Not too sure, but it's the best among 4 shots that my father took. Maybe I should add someone's face on it. Like... well, I dunno, A zun zun? Haha!

The reception area was superbly done. the cocktail drinks included fruit punch, above the usual orange and coke. There was a big ice sculpture (that didn't melt much even towards the end of the evening!) with grapes and strawberries on it, and the guests could have them for appetisers.

The ballroom was decorated with much grandeur. The pathway with arches, the individual coloured spotlights shining on each and every table, the cutlery - everything looked great. Of course, it was better at the VIP table. Guess it's the first and last time I'll be sitting there, haha.

Saw TK there! Long time since I have seen that particular hall senior who was my computer repairman in year one, hee.
Oh, and Slutty N wore another slutty outfit, but who cares. (Yaya, apparently I noted.)

Managed to fend off all the when-is-my-turn questions, haha.
Food was 8/10. Champange was nice. I had 3 glasses of wine, but who's counting. LoL.

Bro-in-law was very sweet! He wrote a song and sang it to sister!!! Phwoah...

Ah, love.

Heh. I told TK and my cousin I'll invite them to my wedding 40 years later. Assuming non-expiry, of course. What a sight it would be!

有时候还会思念。每当想起某段时期，还会心痛。哈哈！算了吧！好闷哦。。。 写些东西吧。。。

fang~ is rubbing her hands in glee,
At the thought of eating ghee.
But looking at that lump of fat made her flee.
Gee.

fang~ wants to watch a movie,
Or to sing ktv.
Where she can see a certain mv,
On the big tv.

The wedding in the church was, I guess, to my sister, really beautiful.
In fact, it really was (other than the evangilistic nature of them coming through - not too great, that). So touching too, think I dropped a few tears haha.
Quite a few of my relatives didn't turn up.

Well, it was really a busy morning (woke up with a swollen eye!), and there were lots of people around. The bridal car is a Jaguar - wow!

The room I once shared with the sister is empty now, and I really have no idea where mother kept my stuff. Maybe after everything I'll have to go hunt for them, and probably buy a notebook, cupboard or a vanity table or something... anyone wants to accompany me? Haha.

Gotta get used to the silence around the house.
Bored. Sigh. Was so tired that I fell asleep watching the march-in, and missed the rest of the show. =(

Think gonna miss her no matter what.

But she'll do well, cos the bro-in-law is a good person. =)

Tmr is the dinner!
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I love this song~

《离开地球表面》
作词/作曲：五月天

丢掉手表 丢外套
丢掉背包 再丢唠叨
丢掉电视 丢电脑
丢掉大脑 再丢烦恼

冲啥大 冲啥小
冲啥丢有人唱反调
恨得多 爱得少
只想越跳越疯 越跳越高
把地球甩掉

一颗心噗通噗通的狂跳
一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉
我再也不要再也不要
委屈自己一秒
一颗心噗通噗通的狂跳
一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉
我甩掉地球地球甩掉
只要越跳越高

丢掉手表 丢外套
丢掉背包 再丢唠叨
丢掉电视 丢电脑
丢掉大脑 再丢烦恼

野心大 胆子小
跳舞还要靠别人教
恨得多 爱得少
只想越跳越疯 越跳越高
把地球甩掉

一颗心噗通噗通的狂跳
一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉
我再也不要再也不要
委屈自己一秒
一颗心噗通噗通的狂跳
一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉
我甩掉地球地球甩掉
只要越跳越高

Come on!

一颗心噗通噗通的狂跳
一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉
我再也不要再也不要
委屈自己一秒
一颗心噗通噗通的狂跳
一瞬间烦恼烦恼烦恼全忘掉
我甩掉地球地球甩掉
只要越跳越高